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Time in a Distributed, Process Driven, Information-Based Universe
Abstract This triad explores a radical reframing of physics—not as a mechanical system of particles and forces, but as a semantic architecture of recursive declarations. Drawing from paradox, quantum ontology, and cosmological structure, the essays propose that reality is not merely observed but actively rendered through the dynamic interplay of energy, structure, and information. Part 1 examines the perception and interpretation of time, challenging classical and relativistic assumptions by introducing procedural time—a distributed, emergent, resolution‑dependent process tied to structural density and information flow. Time is reframed not as a dimension but as the derivative of change, a functional operation arising… Read more.
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absolute, article, auto-publishing, conceptualization, dimensions, distributed process, division-by-zero, epiphanies, geometry, gravity, identity, inspirations, interpretation, mind, ontology, paper, personal musings, perspective, physics, reality, singularity, space, structure, time, truth, understanding, universe, writing·
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The Doctrine of Division‑By‑Zero
David Bryan Roberson’s “The Doctrine of Division-by-Zero” explores the concept of division by zero not as undefined but as an indicator of structural failure in arithmetic. This work presents a philosophical perspective, proposing that when division fails, it reveals a pre-structural condition called Potential, highlighting insights into the nature of meaning and contextualization. Read more.
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article, auto-publishing, conceptualization, dimensions, division-by-zero, epiphanies, inspirations, interpretation, math, ontology, paper, paradox, personal musings, perspective, structure, truth, understanding·
26–39 minutes -
The Engagement Paradox
I don’t really want to start another division-by-zero post by pointing out how it is traditionally dismissed as “undefined,” but I have to, because it really is where The Engagement Paradox begins. It is easy to assume that the reason is something like “you can’t divide something into zero parts,” or that the result “would be infinite.” True or false, neither assumption identifies the real problem. Both can fall under the umbrella of “undefined” because they look like impossibilities. Thinking along those lines goes nowhere, though, because the real problem lies elsewhere. For years, I treated”n in no parts” and… Read more.
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division-by-zero, epiphanies, identity, interpretation, Mathematics, multiplication-by-zero, paradox, perspective, structure, understanding·
4–5 minutes -
The Particle‑Period Focusing of Intersecting Fields
I became curious about the math to describe my interpretation of a quantum particle (as mentioned in Implications of Division by Zero and Point Paradox, the opening section of “Physics in a Distributed, Process Driven, Information-Based Universe“): Thought for the day: My mind wandered back to division by zero and it suddenly struck me that, if applicable in nature, it could be the point where a value ceases to be quanta and becomes qualia. I did not see it for a while. I got to it by thinking about what’s hidden in plain sight in the concepts of quantum mechanics,… Read more.
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dimensions, epiphanies, existentialism, identity, Mathematics, mind, paradox, perspective, physics, reality, singularity, space, time, understanding·
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Division by Zero — by the Rules of Division
Introduction When division by zero is dismissed as “undefined” something crucial goes missing. The conflict that “undefined” tries to avoid is not inherent to division, rather it reflects the limitations of the interpretations used to validate or extend division in other contexts. The consequences of supplying zero from the divisor to the inverse operation of multiplication with the quotient are so obvious that it causes a crucial fact about division to slip into a blind-spot. Euclidean division excludes zero as a divisor by definition, to allow it to solve for the greatest common denominator, so it focuses on something else as well. What these objections to… Read more.
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In Case of Divide-by-Zero: Break Glass
At some point last night I remembered when the whole “divide by zero” thing started for me, all the way back in grade school. We were being taught about division and it finally came up in class. The teacher wrote some fraction, which for the first time showed “0” as the denominator. She turned to us and said “You can’t do this. If you have five cookies on a plate but give them to nobody, you could say you have divided them up for no one and think, in math, it’s like 50\frac{5}{0} but in reality there are still five cookies on… Read more.
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dimensions, epiphanies, existentialism, identity, Mathematics, mind, Notions, paradox, personal musings, perspective, physics, reality, singularity, space, time, understanding·
5–8 minutes -
LLMs Don’t Hallucinate — They Compensate:
A Cognitive Mirror We Don’t Yet Know How to Read With the start of a new year, it struck me that I’ve been using LLMs for a bit more than two years now. I started with coding‑scripting problems in Lua for Filter Forge — not a well‑supported niche — by bouncing things off ChatGPT and later Copilot to work out the graphic scripts I needed. It was often slam‑head‑into‑desk frustrating, but I got used to it. As an artist, I stayed abreast of the complaints and concerns about AI in art, but I found a few uses for it as… Read more.
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The Arrow of Potential
Friday, October 10, 2025, 9:17:50 PM | Dialogue I don’t know if people read my posts and wonder, “Where the hell is this coming from?” I can see it happening though. I’ve written before about typing my fingers to death trying to keep up with my thoughts. The thing that gets me started most of the time is tripping over one unexpectedly and seeing them suddenly snap into clarity during the mental pratfall. That sets off the whole Rube Goldberg device that is my mind, and the next thing I know I’m standing under a waterfall of epiphanies I can… Read more.
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absolute, article, attention, Awareness, death, despair, dimensions, distributed process, epiphanies, existentialism, free-will, gravity, identity, individuality, inspirations, mind, Notions, paradox, personal musings, perspective, physics, reality, singularity, soul, space, suffering, time, truth, understanding, universe, will·
28–42 minutes -
WordPress → GitHub Pages Notes
Copilot provided process overview Export When you click the export button in wp-admin/tools, WordPress will create an XML file for you to save to your computer. This format, which is called WordPress eXtended RSS or WXR, will contain your posts, pages, comments, custom fields, categories, and tags. Once you’ve saved the download file, you can use the Import function in another WordPress installation to import the content from this site. If you’re going to be using a WordPress-powered site, download the wp-content directory and the wp-config.php file. github.io WordPress → GitHub Pages 1. Export WordPress Content 2. Convert to Static… Read more.
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Physics in a Distributed, Process Driven, Information-Based Universe
November 17, 2025 eyeofparadox Abstract This triad explores a radical reframing of physics—not as a mechanical system of particles and forces, but as a semantic architecture of recursive declarations. Drawing from paradox, quantum ontology, and cosmological structure, the essays propose that reality is not merely observed but actively rendered through the dynamic interplay of energy, structure, and information. Beginning with the implications of division by zero and the paradox of hyperpoints, Part 1 introduces the idea that quantum particles are not discrete entities but field declarations—localized manifestations of a nonlocal substrate. This leads to a metaphysical handshake between quanta and… Read more.
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absolute, dimensions, distributed process, epiphanies, gravity, paradox, personal musings, physics, singularity, space, time, understanding, universe, writing·
23–34 minutes -
Proposed Doctrine of „ Notation
Core Concept The `„` separator represents structured relationships, facilitating clear expression of division, inclusion, exclusion, sequence, and hierarchy across filenames, datasets, and computational identifiers. Read more.
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All or Nothing — Division by Zero
Edit: Updated on May 31, 2026 with a more formal rearticulation of the original insights, with additional supporting math , as a companion to THE DOCTRINE OF DIVISION‑BY‑ZERO. If you divide by nothing, in one sense, you get nothing. In another sense, you are left with everything. However much there is to divide, all of it remains – undivided. The remainder is everything. To count it all, however, you must divide it up into discrete quantities. Of course, you can keep dividing it into smaller and smaller parts, each of which is increasingly infinitesimal. As you do so, the number… Read more.
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Avonlea & Kzahn – Tern Vesper Lake
More on Notes & Names… Read more.
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Avonlea – Highlands – Island Dawn
A glimpse into the restructuring of key threads and story arcs… Read more.
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A Goddess & A Girl
A quick glimpse at the Child of Paradox herself… Read more.
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Aeirn
A quick glimpse of Aeirn, the realm of Child of Paradox. Read more.
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The Rift
One of the distinguishing features of Aeirn, the world where my story is set, is the Rift. Created by the abuse of magic, in a string of wars a thousand years ago, the Rift is a tear in the fabric of reality giving a physical expression—and access—to naked Paradox, the inexplicable and improbable union of order and chaos responsible for the creation, or destruction, of all realms. It is the chaos of all possible forms of Order; encompassing the order implicit in all forms of Chaos. It is the expression of Perfection that embraces and supports all of the imperfections… Read more.
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Reality Check
It’s amazing how a little thing, like an email, can have a big impact. I received an invitation to open a store at Cubebrush, and the next thing I know, I have gone and started laying the groundwork for the promotion of Child of Paradox, restoring a ton of inactive social media, building a new Facebook page, registering for advertising, finally opening a Twitter account, and on and on…. At some point, this distraction from the creative work will be worth it, but what a reality check! I did open that store, and posted a few images for download so… Read more.
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The Journey Begins
This is not my first blog. It is, however, the first time in a couple of years where I’ve been in a place where having a blog made sense. I let my art take over while my writing fell to the side, but plans are in the works to bring my art and writing together. The project I have in mind has gone by the title of Child of Paradox since the first ideas formed in High School, so many years ago. Those ideas never left me, and they’ve been a source of inspiration through some long, hard times. Some… Read more.
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Examples of the 4th Dimension
This is a thought that just popped into my head after reviewing my last post. Right off the top of my head, I picked out two candidates for the fourth dimension of space; Scale and State. Read more.
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Musings On Physics & Metaphysics
A lot of time has passed since I had the impulse to post anything; that does not mean I stopped writing my thoughts down! I came across the following on a buried tab in my Notepad++ application. I have tons of random notes like this, and often do nothing with them. I mean, they’re not really intended for the average reader. You might not be able to follow them, and I don’t really know what parts need further elaboration for you to grok them. Even so, I can still throw them out there and hope that you will comment or… Read more.
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13–19 minutes -
Beyond My Grasp
Advisory: I sort of choke and swallow hard before posting an article like this on the eye of paradox, in spite of the fact that I have a history of being rather candid about my experiences as a “transgendered” individual here and on deviantart. I know that many of these posts have the potential to hurt me, professionally, and yet they serve the essential and undeniable need for self-expression that is ultimately the only way I can justify my existence. I would not be surprised to find that these posts drive more people away than they ever manage to enlighten, and… Read more.
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despair, editorial, existentialism, free-will, gender, identity, mind, paradox, personal musings, soul, suffering, transgender, truth, understanding·
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Poetry and Figurative Language Paper
April 6, 2009 ENG 340 – Creative Writing Dr. Shari Muench, EdD. A pen and a piece of paper might technically be the only “tools” a poet requires, but there are many “literary” tools at his (or her) disposal as well. In addition to imagination and a little flirtation with the Muse, a poet uses many other elements of writing to craft his (or her) messages to the heart and soul. This paper looks at the works of three great poets, three extraordinary poems, and explores the imagery, metaphors, rhyme and structure that make them so great. Examples… Read more.
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Fair and Sound: DegreeStory Replies
Original publication on Helium in DegreeStory category: December 7, 2013 Re: University of Phoenix Online Associate of Arts in Business Bachelor of Science in Information Technology for Visual Communications Article #1 – 100 words answering the question: Is your pay fair? Fair, But Not Very Fair There are dozens of great lines in “The Princess Bride” like “Never go up against a Sicilian when Death is on the line” or “Hello! My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die.” The one that holds the most truth, however, is, “Life isn’t fair, Princess. Anyone who says otherwise is… Read more.
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Bridging the Gap: A DegreeStory
Original publication on Helium in DegreeStory category: November 6, 2013 Re: University of Phoenix Online Associate of Arts in Business Bachelor of Science in Information Technology for Visual Communications I am the fifth of seven children, and was an advanced placement student in Art, English and Drama in High School. I have always had a knack for art, an urge to write and a flair for dramatics, so I always expected to end up as an artist, author or actor. I even got an early taste of college the summer after my freshman year in High School, on a 3/4… Read more.
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Taking Part in the Dance with our Eyes Closed
Writing is the embodiment of aspiration. It begins with the will to overcome the unanswerable statement of a blank page. It proceeds in the blind ambition of being read and comprehended. It strives to commit to a more permanent memory the thoughts and ideas of the writer. As often as not, the written word is as quirky and unreliable as any memory, easily lost or misplaced, often transcended by thoughts that spring in the wake of ages, be they moments or millennia. What marks a great writer is the knack of stating what simply must be stated, and all the… Read more.
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Patience and Perseverance
I have to preface this as the follow-up to The Price of Dreams, and point out that it is over two years old now. Seems like a day, and a life-time ago. I’m sorry to say, that my life did not go on to a happy place, but for a moment it seemed like my fast slide into the abyss was stopped at the brink. by avmorgan, Jan 26, 2014, 3:53:02 PM in Journals / Personal I know that there’s too much activity for anyone to keep up with the journals (or blogs) of everyone they follow. That is one of… Read more.
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A Touch of Fear [reblog]
I meant to comment and ended up reblogging. Now I know… A good scare is like good sex. It is gripping and all consuming for an eternal moment, but once it has washed through you and you catch your breath, it evaporates. Like smoke, it unravels, curling in upon itself and expanding into nothing. Before you know it, only the memory remains. Sometimes, all you need to say can be said in a few lines. This is one of the shortest posts I’ve ever made, but it speaks volumes! Read more.
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Does it ever get better?
I am well acquainted with the depths of despair; that place where words hurt in every way and never more than when they give the faintest glimmer of the only thing that could possibly be worse than despair: Hope. Hope makes you drag yourself through the hell you’re trapped in when you’re so broken it’s a miracle you can even move. Hope makes you choke down the agony and anguish, and endure whatever punishment life heaps on top of it, for the unlikely and virtually impossible chance you will survive the pain long enough to discover what it’s like to… Read more.
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death, despair, end of the world, epiphanies, existentialism, free-will, individuality, mind, personal musings, soul, suffering, suicide, truth, understanding·
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Do current theories on Black Holes address Forces other than Gravity?
From time to time, I stumble across a question I have to stop and ask, but I am usually in the middle of something that needs to be done. So, I put it off for later, often forgetting to even write the question down. I know this one is going to come back to plague me, so I am putting it out there in the hopes I can come back and do some research on it later, while giving the random visitor to my site a chance to comment on it or point me toward a source with something to… Read more.
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It’s been a while…
I have spent the past few years chasing after The Job and sliding down to the point where I’m scrambling to just grab A job. It’s an old, familiar story, and the details aren’t really that important. For the sake of my blog, all that matters is that I have not had much time to put my thoughts down, and no time to review or post any that might have been worth sharing. I’m not sure when that will change, but I’m going to take a crack at it. There’s always the chance that my blog could open the door… Read more.
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A Point about Paradox
In the eternal moment, the past and the future are simply a matter of perspective and the past can be influenced by overlapping reinforcement or the intent of the resolving future. A time paradox is a self-informing sequence within a point. The classic grandfather paradox assumes that time is linear, ignoring the fact that the appearance of a person from the future is an unprecedented event at that point in the past. It also ignores the consequences of his absence from the point of his departure in the future. For the time traveler, all of the time leading up to… Read more.
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distributed process, epiphanies, existentialism, free-will, paradox, personal musings, physics, time, understanding, universe·
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Is This It?
I was on my way home on Wednesday, September 23, 2009, with my dinner in hand, and I swear I just wanted to sit down and eat but I knew the bus would show up the minute I did. I had intended to eat in the restaurant, but for some reason the counter person handed me my meal in a bag to go. Since my usual table was occupied, I sighed and left; the entire day had been off like that. I should have known the universe had it in for me. When the bus arrived, I was the second… Read more.
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A Spark
My eyes opened and this is what I saw. You can in yourself be anything you desire. You create yourself from a point. You define your own existence. A soul defines itself. What words cannot define, they can characterize, so that the truth may be recognized as it is encountered. The existence of a soul is absolute, at once all and nothing. The qualities of a soul are both infinite and eternal. A soul is not a question, nor is a soul an answer. A soul is a statement. A soul is an expression, a unique, individual creation. While I… Read more.
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absolute, Awareness, epiphanies, existentialism, mind, personal musings, reflection, soul, truth, understanding·
6–9 minutes -
Staring into the Face of Truth
“A story is as good a way to organize your thoughts as anything else,” she points out, poised in the shadows in the doorway. I quickly conclude that she is playing the part of my conscience. That, or devil’s advocate. Either way, she’s me. I cannot say she does not really exist without implying the same of myself. She is in my mind, and of my mind, so I do not look at her. She cannot be seen, not in the flesh anyway, but it’s not like I have to look at her to see her. “It’s been a long… Read more.
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epiphanies, existentialism, free-will, identity, paradox, personal musings, reflection, short fiction, transgender, truth, Uncategorized, understanding, voices in my head, writing·
6–9 minutes -
Impulse
Who am I? Why am I here? What is the point of my existence? These are questions we all ask at some point in our lives, and we can go our entire lives without knowing the answer. I suspect that a lot of people try to avoid thinking about it, not knowing how to begin answering, and I wonder how long a person can go without asking them. There are an endless number of situations and circumstances that can force us to confront these questions, and other soul searching questions like them. For me, the question can come up as… Read more.
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epiphanies, existentialism, free-will, identity, individuality, paradox, personal musings, reflection, truth, understanding·
4–6 minutes -
It Takes a Village to Break a Child
I do not often get comments on my blog; if I exclude the pingbacks, spam and my own replies, I’ve received twenty-two comments from ten different individuals since I started the eye of paradox two years ago. Four of those people have identified themselves as transgendered, and like every transgendered person I’ve known, it has affected their lives as bad or worse than mine and I do not have to explain myself to them to be understood. For a long time, I’ve understood that this condition is difficult or even impossible for people who have not experienced it to comprehend.… Read more.
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death, discrimination, epiphanies, existentialism, fair play, free-will, gender, identity, individuality, personal musings, reader response, reflection, society, transgender, truth, understanding·
6–10 minutes -
Point Penetrating Points Overlapping
A number of my posts, particularly the ones dealing with transgender issues in my life, have been written on a long, dark night of the soul. It can be difficult to come back and read what I’ve posted and resist the urge to delete what I’ve written, because of how dark they are. I have moments when I think, if ever a family member happened to read them, some of what I’ve written could really hurt them. That was never the intention, and yet, there is a ring of truth to the posts I am not able to deny. It… Read more.
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death, epiphanies, existentialism, fair play, free-will, gender, identity, individuality, personal musings, reflection, transgender·
10–14 minutes -
Exercise in Imagination
I just stumbled across a few things I wrote for a creative writing class I took this past spring to fulfill an elective requirement. One of the assignments involved writing a short story based on a work of art found online. I had no trouble thinking of one that sparked my imagination. The painting “Summer Comes” by Kyena was posted on DeviantArt on March 24, 2006, receiving special notice on April 12, 2006 as a “Daily Deviation” or a featured artwork on the popular artists’ community site. The painting features a girl in a white summer dress in a windy… Read more.
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Matter and Movement in Four–or More–Dimensions
These days, it only takes a little curiosity, access to the Internet, and a bit of patience to find explanations of progressive spatial dimensions or examples of four dimensional geometry, such as the old favorite the hyper-square. Some of the things you will find use analogies like Flatland, or animations which is a way of using time and motion to reveal a higher dimensional object using a lower dimensional cross section. The advantage of this kind of intersection or interface is the ability to scan through what is too dense to actually see through. In this way, we can emulate… Read more.
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dimensions, epiphanies, existentialism, paradox, personal musings, physics, reflection, Uncategorized, understanding, universe·
7–10 minutes -
Hidden in Plain Sight
On April 27, 2008 at 12:36 am, I began a post — this post, actually — but got no further than the title. I don’t know if that was because that title summed up my feelings so well that there was no point to writing any further about what was on my mind. Yesterday, those words came back to me at the conclusion of A Glimpse into the Eye of Paradox. I’ve always thought of the truth as something that is hidden in plain sight, and approached it as something that we take so much for granted we really don’t… Read more.
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A Glimpse into the Eye of Paradox
On any given day, a small handful of people find their way to the eye of paradox. Some of them probably just glance at an article to see if it’s relevant to the search that brought them here. One or two might actually read something. Once in a blue moon, someone leaves a short comment. Taken all together, I do not see anything to indicate that my words mean much. Is that frustrating? A little. I think it only bothers me because I have so much on my mind all the time, and there seems to be little or nothing… Read more.
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5–8 minutes -
The Price of Dreams
“We never remember the beginning,” she said quietly. “We pretend not to know why—but then that is one of our favorite tricks, isn’t it?” she glanced up at me, smiling at my confused silence. With her arms crossed she began to drift about the room, examining objects while continuing this strange introduction. “We pretend not to know many things. We can even pretend not to know the truth. The horrible truth. But the beginning?” she paused and met my eye in the mirror. “Well there is an explanation for that one. We never remember the beginning because there never was… Read more.
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Awakening
I have pointed out before that my struggle with gender dysphoria prompted me to search in all directions for a solution to being born in the wrong body, and the determination with which I pursued that goal in spite of all doubts and discouragements — even attempts to accept things the way they were, adapting to and adopting the identity imposed on me by circumstances — says a lot about me, and even about what I ultimately concluded. My existence may be supported by reality, the physical, chemical, biological and sociological fabric out of which we all seem to be… Read more.
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death, dimensions, epiphanies, existentialism, identity, individuality, paradox, personal musings, physics, time, Uncategorized, understanding, universe·
9–13 minutes -
Slightly Left of Nowhere
I rarely have time to write or draw, and as my friend keeps reminding me, I’ve little hope making a living as an artist or writer. I have to agree, knowing that even brilliant writing and art takes a massive investment of time and effort up front. That seems to be a recurring theme in my life, however. I have never really had the things I needed to succeed in life. I have almost always had a reasonable substitute for the things I lack, which I am sure could have been used to achieve success, if success meant anything in… Read more.
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editorial, existentialism, fair play, identity, individuality, personal musings, truth, understanding·
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It is Where You Can, and Yet… CAN You? On Writing What I Know.
I may have commented on it in passing, and it is something I certainly never miss, but my art and writing have always brought out the real me. In a sense, that is appropriate enough; isn’t it a common recommendation that writers draw from their own experiences? I often feel that my escape into fantasy or science fiction has been good for my sanity, but bad for my hopes of a writing career. I could be wrong. I see enough gender bending in books, manga and film. I find it interesting that most cases involve a boy turned into a… Read more.
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Recapitulation & Reflection
A person looking at my blog might get the impression that I do not get much writing done, and it is true that there are a lot of things in my life that get in the way of me writing most of the things I want to. The inside dope is that much of what I do write, I am not sure I want to share. Does anyone not afflicted with gender dysphoria even care about transgender issues? I honestly do not know. I’ve known people who were sympathetic, curious, interested, confused, upset and even terrified by the topic. It… Read more.
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epiphanies, existentialism, gender, identity, minorities, paradox, personal musings, reflection, transgender, truth, understanding·
22–33 minutes -
The Absolute Truth
The best representation of a thing is the thing itself and yet there are things that we experience great difficulty recognizing in their true form. The truth is one of those things. In speaking of the truth, what we have is a word–and as a representation of a thing, a word provides a label for a concept that is meaningless without an accurate understanding of what the concept represents. Understanding the true meaning of truth is a challenge because it calls upon itself for validation, which is a logical fallacy. Or is it? Is it illogical to state that the… Read more.
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absolute, article, epiphanies, existentialism, helium, personal musings, truth, voices in my head, writing·
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Fly By – Asteroids
Once again, I am posting images from my space art portfolio. This is a reworking of one of the first space art cover illustrations I attempted, but never submitted, for Analog. It was created in Photoshop as part of a new series of space art conceived as “variations on a theme” using similar elements in different ways. In keeping with the role of a concept artist, this series is supposed to demonstrate an ability to create a number of detailed proof images quickly, so each image in this series was produced in an evening or afternoon. The fact that the… Read more.
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Divide by Zero
Originally Posted on Helium.com (ceased) under: Is it possible to divide a number by zero? Edit: Updated on May 31, 2026 with a more formal rearticulation of the original insights, with additional supporting math , as a companion to The Doctrine of Division‑By‑Zero. Edit: Updated on Jan 12, 2026 with supporting math conforming to the intuited logic of the original post. I always came back to this article expecting to be ashamed by my “absurd” assertions. I always came away from reading it thinking there’s absolutely nothing wrong with it, even though it simply wasn’t a mathematical paper. Since the math part of… Read more.
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article, conceptualization, dimensions, division-by-zero, epiphanies, geometry, helium, inspirations, interpretation, math, Mathematics, multiplication-by-zero, ontology, paper, paradox, personal musings, writing·
7–11 minutes -
Blue Horizon
Once more, I thought it would be nice to add a little visual content to the eye of paradox by posting one of the images from my voidscape collection of space art. This is actually a pre-visualization done at a smaller scale than I normally work in Photoshop, using small Terragen renders, to help with a work in progress. To those familiar with my Art is Murder gallery as Alexandrea V. Morgan, the planets first appeared on a wallpaper graphic titled “Artemis and Athena” which was a sneak-preview of the the project I was working on. However, this piece uses… Read more.
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Gravity in a Distributed, Process Driven, Information-Based Universe
To a curious mind, gravity is a curious phenomenon. The more one pays attention to it, the more fascinating and mysterious it becomes. Today, we have the advantage of having had great minds ponder the mystery and define what can be observed and inferred by studying it. Newton pondered the question “why do objects fall?” and provided us with a theory of universal gravity (along with his three laws of motion). He essentially defined the terms we now use to describe and quantify gravity, the force that attracts objects with mass to each other. A description–particularly an accurate mathematical description–of… Read more.
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article, distributed process, epiphanies, gravity, helium, personal musings, physics, reader response, universe, writing·
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Above the Horizon
This is my first attempt to feature some of my artwork here on the eye of paradox. I have always had a strong interest in becoming a professional artist, in spite of having little time and insufficient resources to develop my skills to that level. I started out with the right intentions, pursuing an art degree, but the path I started on led down a different and darker route. I never gave up on the idea, even though it’s taken a long time to get to where I am now as an artist and a writer. In the hopes of… Read more.
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The Damage is Done
I wonder what is going to happen next. I wonder if I can hold it together to get a job and move out on my own. I wonder if I can manage to hold on to that job and support myself. I wonder, because I am not really wanted where I am. The only support I can count on, the support of my family and friends, is conditional. It always has been. It has always been conditional on me finding a way to get steady on my own two feet. The irony of that always brings a smile of agony.… Read more.
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end of the world, epiphanies, fair play, identity, personal musings, reflection, time, transgender, understanding, voices in my head, writing·
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Conundrum
Today I find myself puzzling over the weird fact of my existence. The Internet created an opportunity to show a side of myself that I had long kept hidden. I am, at least in the terms used by the medical community (and by extension, the LGBTQ community), transgendered; in spite of being born and raised male the core of my identity is female. It is not a convenient or desirable situation, and it puts me in constant conflict between who I am and what I am. It would be simpler to let myself be defined by my body but the… Read more.
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What is the Point?
I am back in school, freshly enrolled in the University of Phoenix in pursuit of a Bachelor’s Degree in Information Technology–Visual Communications. I do not have a great deal of time outside of work to devote to this, so I was naturally put out when the site went down in the middle of a post. Not just any post, but a post in which I found myself inspired to posit a somewhat challenging question. Of course that post is now forever lost, inspiring this wonderful missive. When you strive to do not only what is required of you, when you… Read more.
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Point Paradox
“Detailing the dynamics of point paradox has never been easy, but the founding principle is prime awareness, the awareness of one, all and none” she elaborated, settling lightly on the arm of the couch. “Point paradox is initially a question of absolutes. An absolute can be represented with a value of ‘one’, ‘zero’ and ‘infinite’. These values are all essentially equal, depending on perspective. “The evolution of the soul begins with the exploration of this prime awareness, which is initially the struggle of one to comprehend the duality of all and none. “A relative duality is also fostered, the absolute… Read more.
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The Medium of Existence
“A soul is absolute and absolutes are autonomous,” she asserted firmly. “A mind is paradoxical, acting as an inclusive, exclusive and occlusive interface between absolutes, abstractions and manifestations. A mind, with the absolute of a soul as its foundation, is the focus of existence, whether real, surreal or ideal. In short, the mind is the medium of existence, and a single mind can coordinate the disposition of the absolute, the absolutes, and any distillation derived there from. “Space and time are mental constructs acting as filtering and structuring mediums for the primary media of existence, information. Information exists in three… Read more.
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I’m not dead yet…
The rare and occasional visitor to the eye of paradox will note that I have been absent for the most part from my own blog. Ironically, this is not because I have nothing to say. Quite the opposite; I have too much to say and too little time to spend on writing any of it down. That is my reward for trying to improve my education and hold down a steady job. It underscores the problem of trying to do what is expected of you. I am expected to find my place in the world in spite of the fact… Read more.
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The Mind Races On While the Pen Drags Behind
My previous post on The Paradox of Death is a bit more stream of consciousness than I had intended. That is one of the things that happens when writing about thinking existentially. I know I am going to have to reassess what I wrote; there are a lot of good thoughts in there, but I’m not surprised if people find it difficult to read. I had an idea and just could not hold it in a firm grasp, so the result is a bit of a train-wreck. For a long time, that was what I tended to write most, when… Read more.
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The Paradox of Death
There is more to this, to existing, than meets the eye. It is its own prerequisite and it hurts think about why or how. The only thing that hurts more is trying to make sense not existing. But, given our circumstances, we can’t really afford to take it for granted. By a certain age, we know that death awaits, but what does it really mean, in practice? Its not a box you can just think you way out of, but its always safe to assume there is no valid alternative to being. So, if existence is all there is, does it even… Read more.
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Still Scratching That Itch
The whole moving and searching for a better job thing is going slowly, so even with school work, there’s been time to write. Maybe I should not say, write, precisely. I have had a bit of time to pound out some new ideas and wrestle with some old ones, and I am coming to an agreement with myself about what I wanted to write, what I actually wrote, and what I hope to get written. I’ve actually been working on a group of related stories based on a common inspiration for years, so there is more material for me to… Read more.
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Paying the Price
As true as it is that some people are incapable of valuing things they have not paid the price for, the fact is that free money is never free. There is terrible cost for being on the public dole, that is immediately evident when you walk into a welfare community. Being on public assistance or living on a reservation, the cost of that free income or housing is having to live in poverty. It provides just enough to survive but not enough to advance. While many assistance programs include job training and placement programs, the jobs one can qualify for… Read more.
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Take a Moment to Reflect
Even with the best intentions no one has the right to impose a system of thought or action on anyone against their will. Ironically, that is exactly what has happened to all of us as we were born into this world. It is in some ways no different than being born into slavery, in the sense that we come into the world having no say in the system that will govern our lives, and we spend our most vulnerable years being programmed to become obedient citizens and uphold the status quo. As children we learn that the double-standard is pretty… Read more.
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The Best Way to Fit In? Don’t Stand Out
Grouping is an activity that comes instinctively and automatically to people. It is part of a filtering process that allows us to make sense of our universe. Anything can serve as criteria for grouping, but because this is a perceptual-interpretive process; differences and similarities in physical characteristics are the most prevalent. As we learn and grow, we also associate ideas and experiences with the items in our cognitive inventory. We give values to people, places and things based on personal experience, inherited attitudes and beliefs, and assumptions. Part of our ability to form instant impressions and make immediate judgments is… Read more.
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discrimination, fair play, individuality, minorities, personal musings, society, sociology, transgender·
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A Touch of Fear
A good scare is like good sex. It is gripping and all consuming for an eternal moment, but once it has washed through you and you catch your breath, it evaporates. Like smoke, it unravels, curling in upon itself and expanding into nothing. Before you know it, only the memory remains. Read more.
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Being at Odds with Life
I never imagined that I had a monopoly on being at odds with life. It is simply a state of being with which I am much too familiar. I have spent most of my life struggling with things that most people take for granted, stumbling and falling in places where most people stride with confidence and conviction. Strangely, I can dance through other places where most people crawl along blindly in fear and confusion or turn and run from in terror. I am not like everyone else, and I can not just be like everyone else and do what everyone… Read more.
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Open Letter to Lindsay Lohan
Hello, Lindsay. I don’t know you and you certainly do not know me! That said, I do not really expect you to actually read this letter, and if you do, I really do not expect anything from you. Still, it is an open letter for you, and regardless of who else reads it, it is meant only for you. I don’t have a very clear idea why I am doing this, and if anything actually comes of it, I will probably regret it at some point. I’m not even sure how to begin. I am not your friend. I am… Read more.
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The Price of Admission
What is a society, what is it made up of and how does it work? The simple answer is, jobs. Society is all about jobs. Living in the wild, surviving on their own, human beings had no jobs. Their lives were defined by the tasks that needed to be done in order to be able to survive. A bunch of people living together and sharing their resources does a better job of surviving, and each person becomes primarily responsible for the task he or she is best suited to do. A job is taking responsibility for a certain task, fulfilling… Read more.
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Time in a Distributed, Process Driven, Information-Based Universe
In order to understand time it becomes necessary to ask if time is an objective or subjective medium. To be clear, by considering time subjectively I do not mean simply in terms of our subjective perception of time. The question asks if time is absolute, and thus events at different points in time persist in their own frame of reference with a constant relative position in time. Basically, it asks if there are actual positions in and structure to time. The alternative, subjective time, deals with the concept of time as being functional, an operation upon the objective structure of… Read more.
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article, distributed process, epiphanies, interpretation, paper, physics, reality, time, understanding, universe·
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That Itch to Write
It seems that the itch to start working on a book has come back to me. It has to be an insane impulse, because with school and work I have no idea where I’ll find time to actually write anything. Then there’s the fact that I’ll be moving in the next few weeks and looking for a new job. I know I must be crazy. Of course, that’s not a new feeling for me! I have been scratching for article ideas for Helium, because that odd cent or two might eventually add up to something! At the rate I’m going,… Read more.
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What is evil?
There is a line in “The Matrix” when Morpheus confronts Neo about a wrongness in the world, “like a splinter in your mind.” It was caused by an instinctive apprehension of the artificial reality he was trapped in. It is similar to a feeling many people have about our own reality. There is a wrongness in the world, evident in the mystery of life, the inevitability of death and in the things that we call evil. There is something we all sense is missing or distorted, some question not asked or some answer that cannot be found. When asked why… Read more.
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GID?
In my bio on Helium, I confided a history of GID. That is Gender Identity Disorder, for those of you who did not know. There are a number of problems with that particular label for a condition that is poorly understood at best and entirely subjective at worst. Other terms that can be used are Gender Dysphoria or Transgendered, and like GID, there are issues inherent in their use as well. The reason I used GID in my bio is because it acknowledges the inherent relationship between gender and identity. The reason I have reservations about it is of course… Read more.
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Explaining the Different Dimensions
I normally avoid the first person when writing an article or essay, but in this case I need to begin with a personal story A year into my studies at Humboldt State University a mutual acquaintance showed up at my friend’s apartment while I was visiting and regaled us with his synopsis of a lecture on dimensions he recently attended. I do not recall what the class was, and I’m not even sure I remember the student’s name, but I will never forget that conversation. Prior to that day, I had not given the concept of dimensions my full attention,… Read more.
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Is there really such a thing as the present?
Is there really such a thing as time? That is a question it is helpful to ask in order to address what we call the present. That is because our experience of time is completely subjective and because everything we are is dependent on that peculiar subjectivity. Time is what we derive from the ceaseless transformation that is part of awareness, consciousness, thought, perception, action and reaction. Time is our measure of the dynamic quality of existence that compliments the static quality of existence the latter of which allows the world and ourselves to be manifest. The question is, does… Read more.
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Noosphere: The Future of Evolution?
Those moments in life when we are confronted with a new concept or idea can be life altering, seemingly setting the mind free to roam a new and undiscovered country or even knocking the world completely off its hinges. Sometimes that can happen even with just a new word or concept for something we’ve had an inkling of all along. In some cases, it is more like getting hit in the head with a brick and realizing that this strange and wonderous idea has been staring us in the face for so long we have actually gotten in the habit… Read more.
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The Purpose of Religion
In asking about the purpose of religion, it is necessary to ask first if religion is not simply a product of our own search for purpose? The answer to the primary question depends on whether we perceive religion as having a divine origin or if we see it as the origin of divine thinking. Either way, religion comes to us through human agents, so we have to begin by looking at what it is to be human. It is in our nature to form ideas about the world based upon our observations and experiences–and we all do it. In the… Read more.
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The Implications of the Mind in Matter: The Prospect of Oblivion
July 18, 2007 – on eyeofparadox David B. Roberson COM 125 – AXIA College, University of Phoenix – West Professor Janet Hrncir January 19, 2007 The mind is an inherently fascinating and difficult subject to pin down. Philosophers have been musing over the mysteries of the mind for thousands of years but it is, without doubt, the scientists who find it the most frustrating to study. The subjective nature of the mind makes it ill suited for scientific scrutiny, but scientists have found ways to pursue the matter indirectly. While some scientists have probed the frontier of the mind through… Read more.
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Readers from Helium
Among the features not provided for contributors on the now-defunct Helium writer’s website was a way for readers to respond directly to the writers. While it was active, the only way for readers to respond on Helium was by posting their own thoughts on the topic at hand. Those who were so inclined were welcome to do so, there, but I imagined that not all responses would have been suited to that approach, so I invited my readers to respond here if they preferred. I originally told eye of paradox readers, if you are coming here from Helium, general comments and questions can be made… Read more.
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Helium.com Articles
Original writer’s profile, revised at time of articles’ relocation to the Eye of Paradox I’ve been scratching out ideas since the writing bug first bit me in grade school. Somewhere in the back of my mind I always had this notion that I was going to devote some part of my life to writing. Of course, I’ve spent much more time thinking, while trying to find time to get anything written! Inevitably, when the time came to start writing, I had thoughts waiting to be expressed. I used to just spill them out in a notepad and file them away,… Read more.
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