Category: identity
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The Engagement Paradox
I don’t really want to start another division-by-zero post by pointing out how it is traditionally dismissed as “undefined,” but I have to, because it really is where The Engagement Paradox begins. It is easy to assume that the reason is something like “you can’t divide something into zero parts,” or that the result “would…
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The Particle‑Period Focusing of Intersecting Fields
I became curious about the math to describe my interpretation of a quantum particle (as mentioned in Implications of Division by Zero and Point Paradox, the opening section of “Physics in a Distributed, Process Driven, Information-Based Universe“): Thought for the day: My mind wandered back to division by zero and it suddenly struck me that,…
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Division by Zero — by the Rules of Division
Introduction When division by zero is dismissed as “undefined” something crucial goes missing. The conflict that “undefined” tries to avoid is not inherent to division, rather it reflects the limitations of the interpretations used to validate or extend division in other contexts. The consequences of supplying zero from the divisor to the inverse operation of multiplication with the quotient…
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In Case of Divide-by-Zero: Break Glass
At some point last night I remembered when the whole “divide by zero” thing started for me, all the way back in grade school. We were being taught about division and it finally came up in class. The teacher wrote some fraction, which for the first time showed “0” as the denominator. She turned to…
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The Arrow of Potential
Friday, October 10, 2025, 9:17:50 PM | Dialogue I don’t know if people read my posts and wonder, “Where the hell is this coming from?” I can see it happening though. I’ve written before about typing my fingers to death trying to keep up with my thoughts. The thing that gets me started most of…
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Beyond My Grasp
Advisory: I sort of choke and swallow hard before posting an article like this on the eye of paradox, in spite of the fact that I have a history of being rather candid about my experiences as a “transgendered” individual here and on deviantart. I know that many of these posts have the potential to hurt…
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Staring into the Face of Truth
“A story is as good a way to organize your thoughts as anything else,” she points out, poised in the shadows in the doorway. I quickly conclude that she is playing the part of my conscience. That, or devil’s advocate. Either way, she’s me. I cannot say she does not really exist without implying the…
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Impulse
Who am I? Why am I here? What is the point of my existence? These are questions we all ask at some point in our lives, and we can go our entire lives without knowing the answer. I suspect that a lot of people try to avoid thinking about it, not knowing how to begin…
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It Takes a Village to Break a Child
I do not often get comments on my blog; if I exclude the pingbacks, spam and my own replies, I’ve received twenty-two comments from ten different individuals since I started the eye of paradox two years ago. Four of those people have identified themselves as transgendered, and like every transgendered person I’ve known, it has…
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Point Penetrating Points Overlapping
A number of my posts, particularly the ones dealing with transgender issues in my life, have been written on a long, dark night of the soul. It can be difficult to come back and read what I’ve posted and resist the urge to delete what I’ve written, because of how dark they are. I have…
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Awakening
I have pointed out before that my struggle with gender dysphoria prompted me to search in all directions for a solution to being born in the wrong body, and the determination with which I pursued that goal in spite of all doubts and discouragements — even attempts to accept things the way they were, adapting…
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Slightly Left of Nowhere
I rarely have time to write or draw, and as my friend keeps reminding me, I’ve little hope making a living as an artist or writer. I have to agree, knowing that even brilliant writing and art takes a massive investment of time and effort up front. That seems to be a recurring theme in…
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It is Where You Can, and Yet… CAN You? On Writing What I Know.
I may have commented on it in passing, and it is something I certainly never miss, but my art and writing have always brought out the real me. In a sense, that is appropriate enough; isn’t it a common recommendation that writers draw from their own experiences? I often feel that my escape into fantasy…
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Recapitulation & Reflection
A person looking at my blog might get the impression that I do not get much writing done, and it is true that there are a lot of things in my life that get in the way of me writing most of the things I want to. The inside dope is that much of what…
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The Damage is Done
I wonder what is going to happen next. I wonder if I can hold it together to get a job and move out on my own. I wonder if I can manage to hold on to that job and support myself. I wonder, because I am not really wanted where I am. The only support…
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Being at Odds with Life
I never imagined that I had a monopoly on being at odds with life. It is simply a state of being with which I am much too familiar. I have spent most of my life struggling with things that most people take for granted, stumbling and falling in places where most people stride with confidence…
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GID?
In my bio on Helium, I confided a history of GID. That is Gender Identity Disorder, for those of you who did not know. There are a number of problems with that particular label for a condition that is poorly understood at best and entirely subjective at worst. Other terms that can be used are…
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